Tuesday, January 31, 2012

So Close, Yet So Far...

Yesterday will always be referred to as the day that I tried to go skiing with only 2 days’ notice. To set the scene: Sunday night I talked to my friend Kristin on the phone. We were just catching up and such when she mentioned that this weekend is when they are going skiing with her parents. The conversation goes as follows:
Kristin: Too bad Jordan has to work and you guys can’t come.

Jenny: Yeah, too bad he doesn’t even have to work this weekend anymore!

K: Well…so is there any way that you guys could come?!

J: ……………(long pause as I contemplate the many logistics that would play into this)

J: Well. Hmmm. Maybe?! Ok ok I will check into this!!

So the rest of Sunday night and then yesterday morning were a whirlwind of details and number crunches. How many miles is the trip? How many gallons to the tank and miles to the gallon? Ok, so then how much will gas be? And I have PB&J supplies already, so how much for groceries? Lift tickets are an outragesouly good deal at $50/day. Check. Lodging, also a good deal. Check. Good good. Ok, 32 hours in the car in 5 days. Wowzers. But doable. And worth it.

From logistics, it turned to responsibilities. How many vacation days do I have left? What all do I have going on at work in the next few days? How would I reschedule tutoring? Do I have any available time to reschedule that tutoring? I still have college group to think about too. Two people will be out of the office while I would be gone, making our team 3 people short—not preferable, but definitely doable. I just found out Saturday that I need new tires. Can I afford this trip? Yes, but I need tires. But yes. But I need tires. But I have to do this! IT’S BEEN 3 YEARS!

I went to breakfast with some of the girls from my college group. Over bagels, they told me that I HAD to go. Then my coworkers said, “Jenny, this is a must!” They were all confirming what I already knew. With that, I went into my boss’ office. All the numbers, dollar signs, and questions quickly vanished when she said, “Jenny, you can’t miss Monday.”

I FORGOT! I forgot that Monday is a big day in our department. Alas, I will not be going skiing this weekend. It was an exciting and crazy 24 hours of hopes and adrenaline. Even though a ski trip with only 48 hours’ notice would have been epic and an event to remember, I will not be going skiing. This time. But I feel good about it because I exhausted all the possibilities. It just wasn’t meant to be.

Getting the occasional “no” is all part of living an adventurous life. Until next time…

Thursday, January 5, 2012

2012

So for 2011 I tried something new.  I made a list of 100 things to do in 2011.  I am not much of a list maker, which, incidentally, was proven true when I never actually finished making the list...It only had 96 things on it.  Of those 96 items, I completed 44...which isn't too shabby for this non-list maker.  These things ranged from visiting my sister in Boston to driving a tractor... from learning to tie a tie to performing a choreographed dance in front of 1,400 people...and from putting together a 1,000 piece puzzle to finding that oh-so-necessary recipe to call my own.  I am glad I did the list. But.  As it turns out, 100 things was a tad ambitious.

Now, what to do for 2012? I'm not one for resolutions because as exhibited with the 2011 list, among other things, I struggle from time-to-time...cough cough...with follow through.  Year after year, I have vowed to be on time, to quit double-booking, and to work out more (sidenote: I did actually purchase a gym membership today...but it was less of a New Year's resolution and more of a giving over to fear of all the wild country dogs near my house).  We have all made those resolutions that die out somewhere between "this is a great idea!" and January 31st.

With this said, here are my hopes for 2012.  Maybe goals is the right word?  Meh, I dunno.  We'll find out.

I hope 2012 is a year filled with adventure and risk-taking.  It already appears that this year will be one for taking risks and embracing the unknown. I have a sneaking suspicion that this year will be one where I really start to look at what direction I want my life to take.  Eek, that sounded too big kiddish.

Moving on...

I hope 2012 is a year for developing my strengths.  The past 2 years have really been about developing my weaknesses.  Don't get me wrong, I am so thankful for how much I have grown and what I have learned, and overall becoming more well-rounded...but let's face it, developing your strengths is way more fun!

In 2012, I hope to read and write more.  This one partners with the previous one.  I was an English major, after all.

In 2012, I hope to manage my time better.  This past fall was absolutely out of control.  I had way too many committments and nearly every hour was blocked out with something and every weekend was a trip or a schedule.  While I loved everything I was a part of and got to do, I recognize that I was stretched too thin and wasn't doing any of it with excellence.  This is the story of my life--saying yes to everything--and always hoping to do it all. FOMO* at its finest.  I am going to trim back some stuff for this year and try to put more focus and heart into each thing.

Lastly, I hope 2012 is filled with lots of fun, new experiences, Neon Dynamite softball, laughing, road trips, Bingo, and a Sooner championship team. =) Stay tuned...

"There are years that ask questions and years that answer."-Zora Neale Hurston

*Fear Of Missing Out